Back when I was in seminary one of our priests gave a reflection on Christ’s agony and the interior anguish He went through. In other words, Christ went through more than just physical suffering, He also suffered interiorly just as we do. My thoughts turned to the memory of this reflection because of the Gospel reading used this morning. In Matthew 26 Judas goes and asks the chief priests what they would be willing to give him if he hands over Jesus. After getting paid 30 pieces of silver Matthew then starts telling us that the disciples were preparing for the Passover. Before the Passover takes place Judas is already in the process of betraying Jesus.
For we have not a high priest who is unable to sympathize with our weaknesses, but one who in every respect has been tempted as we are, yet without sin.Hebrews 4:15 RSV
When I composed A Prayer to Jesus for Solace I was thinking of all the ways that Christ sympathizes with us. The author of Hebrews is pretty much reminding us that Jesus experienced all things that we do, yet without sin. With that in mind, it had to break His heart that one of the Twelve, a person who followed Him for years, a person who He would share His Body and Blood with, was going to hand Him over, and He knew it. His knowing that Peter would deny Him three times had to break His heart as well.
My thoughts have been on all of you at home who won’t be able to celebrate the Triduum in person. Though staying in is for the good of others, it still hurts to be separated from each other and our parishes. I encourage you to unite that to Christ this week when you celebrate the Triduum from home as He too knows what our pain is like at this time. Recalling the words from Hebrews, He does sympathize with us right now.